Pre-season task 1 - "Get Real - No More Excuses"

This was a great video, well done Michelle! It really made me think about the choices that I make to sabbotage my own success, my excuses, and how I can overcome them. Looking at all of the excuses I have listed - and believe me there are many - the ones that have the most impact are my internal excuses. There is not a single external excuse within my control or not that I cannot deal with. But when it comes to inside my head, well, that is a whole other story. I feel empowered after taking the time to really think about what has been holding me back and writing it down, setting it in stone, no longer denying that I had no power to control things.

You know what? The excuses I used that hurt the most to communicate to myself were the most ridiculous. 'I don't deserve to improve' and 'I don't want to disappoint people when I fail'. Just looking at those words now makes me angry. How could I make myself feel like that for 20+years? Is there any possibility that I would think someone I loved did not DESERVE to improve themselves? No way, everyone should strive to be their best. How would I feel if my kids decided not to try something in case they THOUGHT they might fail and let me down? Disappointed and sad, afterall, I try my hardest to encourage them in all they do.

I have wasted a whole lot of my life concerning myself about how others perceive me, and all the while I was my own harshest critic. It is time to take a step back from inside my head and start to believe that I deserve to be the best I can be, and improve I will, with lots of hard work, love and support from family and friends, and even more hard work. I know now that I can never disappoint those who really care about me as long as I am trying my best... afterall, that is all I can do. But my best is going to be a new best, a determined best, an honest with myself best, a two steps forward one step back best. This is not an easy road that I am choosing to take but I'm gonna tackle it head on anyway.

For a long time I thought I was ready to change my nutition and exercise habits, but only now, with my excuses set in stone I am ready to change my attitude.